Excited, Uncomfortable and Sad

I am excited about four things: 

road trip this weekend

visit from dear friend

visit from former roommate and dear friend

the two friends visiting are going to Nigeria separately 

to two very different parts of the country 

(ok i'm also slightly jealous) 

Things that are making me uncomfortable this week:

money

my stomach

the political atmosphere in the US 

the fact that i cannot for the life of me wake up before 6am

And sadness for me comes in many forms. A few are:
people dying for the wrong cause

feeling that i am becoming complacent about people

not able to hug the living daylights out of my older sister 

because she's making me an auntie again 

being away from family
seeing a dead baby on the way to the mortuary

not being able to move beyond my fears and inadequacies... 

Not even half way through the week and yet so much... 

Thank God for the strength to make it through another day.